Funny...I never thought I would actually miss going to the gym, but I really do. I was planning on going today, but my feet are already hurting quite a bit from a busy week at work.
For many who do not know, I have been dealing with foot pain which has also caused knee & hip pain, thus the lack of time in the gym. It all started back in May, but I didn't do anything about it until June. The pain in my feet just got to be so bad that I was having a hard time walking at work. At first it was worse when I walked in bare feet, but then they started to hurt all the time. I broke down & went to see a podiatrist. I found out that I had a neuroma in my right foot (which is an inflamed nerve) and some inflammation at the base of each big toe. The pain was caused by my tendons attached at the site of inflammation. I was given a cortisone shot between my 3rd & 4th toes (which hurt like hell!), given a prescription for anti-inflammatories and padding to give my right foot some relief. This all helped some, but still hurt especially when I was at work.
After 3 weeks, the anti-inflammatories started to work & I was feeling a lot better. I was told that I would need orthotics as I have a very high arch & it puts extra pressure on certain parts of my foot. I was not crazy about the idea of spending around $300 for orthotics so I asked around at work. I found out a Physical Therapist casts for orthotics & would only charge cost & shipping....HUGE savings!
I am semi-patiently waiting for my orthotics to come in so I can get back into a good gym routine. I have had an unfortunate weight gain which I'm sure doesn't help the foot pressure situation either (hahaha). I am hoping the I can get back to jogging & being able to play raquetball without aggravating my feet. There will be some celebrating going on when that day comes! :)
love to all!
Monday, August 30, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Ohio
Well, after about 2 months of total non interest in getting involved with anyone of the male species (anything other than just friends) I met one who seems to have pulled me out. His name is Jeff "Ohio" & he lives here in St. George, but is from Ohio, thus the nickname. He just turned 38, has been married with no kids, is a very tall 6'5" and has a shaven head (as many of you may know, I really like that look). We met through a mutual friend about 2 1/2 weeks ago and have been talking & spending time together ever since. We've started playing raquetball at least once a week when work schedules allow. I love this as I have been wanting to find someone to play with. I don't have pictures, but he does so I will have to get some from him to post on here. I actually found a guy who loves to take pictures! I know many of you will be excited about this. Well, I will try to update better than in the past, but there are no guarantees. ;)
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Starting over....again
*WARNING: This post may seem as though I am whining or throwing a pity party. I am not...I am just posting my feelings & thoughts. You are free to stop reading at any point & encouraged to do so especially if you start to feel as though you want to reach through the computer & strangle me.*
The title of my blog hit me today. Kinda funny how that happens. It's been the title for a while & as I was wondering about what I could possibly write, it hit me. I was reading a wonderfully elegant post by a friend, thinking I wish I could write like that. I mean, to be able to put your struggles in such a positive light...I would love that. I figure most people don't want to hear the thoughts on my life as they have mostly been negative. I try to put the positive spin on it...adding the things I have learned (or think I have). Sometimes I wonder if I really have learned anything as I keep circling back around (or so it seems).
I was starting my new year off in a very positive light. I had a few goals in mind, felt good that this year was going to be a great one and was actually feeling pretty good about my life. I was okay with being alone (something I have been struggling with for several months), excited about what this new year had to offer, wanting to get back into things I have done for years and enjoying the nice cool of winter (love winter!). What happened? I feel like I have been sent back in time and feeling everything I thought I was over. Back to the being at the edge of tears all the time. I found myself allowing others to help me feel like I just wasn't worth their time. THIS was a turning point, or so I thought. I have found that I do not handle feeling sad and insignificant well. I feel like I have no control as I burst into tears because of a dumb commercial or part of a tv show. It was enough to piss me off. Now this is an emotion I can handle, feel like I can control. Unfortunately, I rarely stay this way for long. I was hoping to hang on to it for a while, but NO. I find myself back at the edge of insanity (tears). I HATE CRYING!!!! I feel so dang weak and find that I feel stupid for crying over nothing....really? haven't I shed enough tears over this? I want to be done!
I feel like I am starting over again. I know I have a good life and so I feel like I must be a spoiled brat. I want what I want and because I can't have what I want I'm going to throw a royal fit by kicking, screaming & crying until I get what I want. Of course by saying this I know that when I get what I want I may not want it anymore...lol. I have a great job & work with amazing people, have a wonderful family who love & support me through any & everything, have the best of friends who are willing to listen to my tearful & retarded rants (& I certainly appreciate you not slapping me upside the head because I'm just not getting it) and above all I know that I have a Father in Heaven who does truly love me (I am sure He is past tired of watching me act as if I am not grateful for all the blessings I am constantly given). I guess I am ungrateful as the blessings I want most of all are not the ones I am receiving and thus the tantrums. Does anyone know how to stop wanting something you've wanted for most of your life? If you do I would like to know the secret.
Okay, so now I would like to go back to the beginning of this year when I wasn't bursting into tears at least once a day, when I was happier and my future looked hopeful. I am working on that. Until then I will make it through and hope that everyone will have a lot of patience with me. I know I am truly blessed and that my life could actually be hard. I could actually have something to cry or be sad about. I know I will make it through and be a better & stronger person because or inspite of it all. I have definitely learned more about me, not all of it good, but learning is the key, right?
Many thanks to all you wonderful people in my life! I love you all!!
The title of my blog hit me today. Kinda funny how that happens. It's been the title for a while & as I was wondering about what I could possibly write, it hit me. I was reading a wonderfully elegant post by a friend, thinking I wish I could write like that. I mean, to be able to put your struggles in such a positive light...I would love that. I figure most people don't want to hear the thoughts on my life as they have mostly been negative. I try to put the positive spin on it...adding the things I have learned (or think I have). Sometimes I wonder if I really have learned anything as I keep circling back around (or so it seems).
I was starting my new year off in a very positive light. I had a few goals in mind, felt good that this year was going to be a great one and was actually feeling pretty good about my life. I was okay with being alone (something I have been struggling with for several months), excited about what this new year had to offer, wanting to get back into things I have done for years and enjoying the nice cool of winter (love winter!). What happened? I feel like I have been sent back in time and feeling everything I thought I was over. Back to the being at the edge of tears all the time. I found myself allowing others to help me feel like I just wasn't worth their time. THIS was a turning point, or so I thought. I have found that I do not handle feeling sad and insignificant well. I feel like I have no control as I burst into tears because of a dumb commercial or part of a tv show. It was enough to piss me off. Now this is an emotion I can handle, feel like I can control. Unfortunately, I rarely stay this way for long. I was hoping to hang on to it for a while, but NO. I find myself back at the edge of insanity (tears). I HATE CRYING!!!! I feel so dang weak and find that I feel stupid for crying over nothing....really? haven't I shed enough tears over this? I want to be done!
I feel like I am starting over again. I know I have a good life and so I feel like I must be a spoiled brat. I want what I want and because I can't have what I want I'm going to throw a royal fit by kicking, screaming & crying until I get what I want. Of course by saying this I know that when I get what I want I may not want it anymore...lol. I have a great job & work with amazing people, have a wonderful family who love & support me through any & everything, have the best of friends who are willing to listen to my tearful & retarded rants (& I certainly appreciate you not slapping me upside the head because I'm just not getting it) and above all I know that I have a Father in Heaven who does truly love me (I am sure He is past tired of watching me act as if I am not grateful for all the blessings I am constantly given). I guess I am ungrateful as the blessings I want most of all are not the ones I am receiving and thus the tantrums. Does anyone know how to stop wanting something you've wanted for most of your life? If you do I would like to know the secret.
Okay, so now I would like to go back to the beginning of this year when I wasn't bursting into tears at least once a day, when I was happier and my future looked hopeful. I am working on that. Until then I will make it through and hope that everyone will have a lot of patience with me. I know I am truly blessed and that my life could actually be hard. I could actually have something to cry or be sad about. I know I will make it through and be a better & stronger person because or inspite of it all. I have definitely learned more about me, not all of it good, but learning is the key, right?
Many thanks to all you wonderful people in my life! I love you all!!
Friday, January 1, 2010
Thanksgiving to Christmas
Well I have to say that I am glad to see that I am among a group of friends who are also a little behind on their blogs. I figured I could catch up with one covering Thanksgiving & Christmas as not much else has been happening.
Thanksgiving was spent in the lovely Antelope Valley. Okay, so I admit that I don't find much lovely about it, BUT I do have some lovely family there. We had a Bird family reunion during the holiday weekend as the greatest number of family members could attend. We certainly missed the Kenna & Tony Miani family, Carrie & Andy Borman family and Craig & Keri family. It seems as we all get older & the family expands, it's harder to get everyone together. It was great fun to spend time getting reaquainted with cousins I haven't seen in 2 years. The young ones grow up so fast! Here are a few pictures from our good times. I really appreciate all those who put in so much work to prepare the food & games.
For Christmas I was so happy to be in Grand Junction, CO with the snow! While it didn't snow while I was there, I was perfectly happy to enjoy the snow already on the ground. I was able to spend some time with Craig, Keri, Ryan, Ruby, Mom & Dad. It was a nice & relaxing time. I can't believe how big the girls are getting. Ryan is so full of energy, she makes me tired just watching her. Ruby is army crawling & is not fond of smiling for the camera. Luckily we were able to get some cute pictures of her anyway. I also was able to go to lunch with my friend, Monica, before I left to go home. I always love visiting with my friends. Unfortunately I don't always have time to visit with everyone I want to. Even though I get 7 days off, it speeds by & before I know it, I have to come back home to get ready for a week of work. Here are some pictures from Christmas.
I have certainly been blessed to be able to spend time with so much family this holiday season. I also got a new bike for Christmas & am excited to ride on some of the trails here in town. I'm hoping this will be a fun new way for me to get some exercise.
I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving & Christmas!
Thanksgiving was spent in the lovely Antelope Valley. Okay, so I admit that I don't find much lovely about it, BUT I do have some lovely family there. We had a Bird family reunion during the holiday weekend as the greatest number of family members could attend. We certainly missed the Kenna & Tony Miani family, Carrie & Andy Borman family and Craig & Keri family. It seems as we all get older & the family expands, it's harder to get everyone together. It was great fun to spend time getting reaquainted with cousins I haven't seen in 2 years. The young ones grow up so fast! Here are a few pictures from our good times. I really appreciate all those who put in so much work to prepare the food & games.
For Christmas I was so happy to be in Grand Junction, CO with the snow! While it didn't snow while I was there, I was perfectly happy to enjoy the snow already on the ground. I was able to spend some time with Craig, Keri, Ryan, Ruby, Mom & Dad. It was a nice & relaxing time. I can't believe how big the girls are getting. Ryan is so full of energy, she makes me tired just watching her. Ruby is army crawling & is not fond of smiling for the camera. Luckily we were able to get some cute pictures of her anyway. I also was able to go to lunch with my friend, Monica, before I left to go home. I always love visiting with my friends. Unfortunately I don't always have time to visit with everyone I want to. Even though I get 7 days off, it speeds by & before I know it, I have to come back home to get ready for a week of work. Here are some pictures from Christmas.
I have certainly been blessed to be able to spend time with so much family this holiday season. I also got a new bike for Christmas & am excited to ride on some of the trails here in town. I'm hoping this will be a fun new way for me to get some exercise.
I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving & Christmas!
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